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A lot on my mind [23 Jan 2014|10:43pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So, all I see plastered on every social media site is hitting me very hard. I see boyfriend/girlfriend starts, engagements, marriages and children.
I have only been in one relationship and was hurt like no other. I was told I had been cheated by him and then the drama starts. The female then started the he got me pregnant. She was married at the time this happened.
So, for the past two years all of this has put me in a depressed state of mind.
I am taking it as I am damaged and no one wants anything to do with me. It is not from lack of trying either.

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Now the lesson's learned, I touched it I was burned [03 Jun 2010|11:54am]
[ mood | Effin Pissed ]

The day we started everything

The day you almost lost the best damn thing

I have had it with I'm sorry.
I can't stand to hear those words anymore.
You fucked up and yet I'm still here.
I just wish you would see things clearer.

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[11 Dec 2009|03:34am]
I want to give up
I want to call it quits.
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Hes just a boy and Im just a girl [05 Feb 2009|08:01am]
[ mood | confused ]

Well, I haven't posted in like FOREVER and I thought that it was about time that I did.

Lets see...I have gotten my first boyfriend. We met at work. And we have been together since 10/24/2008.

Other than that..Nothing major.

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Is it love or what? [29 Dec 2007|06:41am]
[ mood | Do you love me like I love you ]

It has been 5 weeks since I have last posted something on here.
I just dont know what to do.
Why is it that things are so confusing?
Why does the world have to tempt me?
I just wished I knew what I was supposted to do.
I just wanna know if he feels for me like I feel for him.
No one has ever made me feel the way like he does.
Is it something I should accept it, but I am just confused.

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You cant stop the beat [23 Nov 2007|07:40am]
[ mood | I miss my Matt ]

I cant get you out of my head
I sleep better when we talk
You make me happy
Make me smile
Make me feel special
Making me want something
I cant have
Taken, spoken for

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I dont know its a potato [28 Oct 2006|07:07am]
[ mood | Why is everything it is ]

I am on little to no sleep. I have to go to work tonight. I dont really want to work. I know if I want anything I have to have a job. I just want something I enjoy and not something I am forced to do. I just want to have fun and work to. I want to amount to something, but Wal-Mart just aint looking like an advancement in life.

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Let them say we're crazy. I don't care about that. [17 Aug 2006|12:11am]
[ mood | I wanna hug Garrett ]

I realize that I never post for shit. So.....I decided to post today. I mean, I just never have enough time between work. I really dont have much to say or type at that. I just dont have an interesting life.

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Under Pressure [19 Jul 2006|11:45am]
[ mood | bored ]

Lets see.... I think I will start with a boring little tell with the girl that just works, sleeps and does absolutely nothing with her life. There is this girl, who's name is not any concern. But she just work and on the days she has off she does nothing but collect dust. She lives this dull, and boring life. The time in which her vest is on and it is off at the end of the day is another story for another time. But she just thinks about nothing and everything. There is nothing to keep her set but she lives her life like normal, or what is perceved to be normal by others.

This might seem like nothing but it is just the begining. There is more to come but not that anyone reads.

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All I ever wanted [15 Jun 2006|04:42pm]

As I am writing this I am on a bus heading for Knoxville. Just one of the 4 (major) stops on my journey to Goldsboro. I have thought about this this morning while waiting. As nervous as I was. This was either stupid or brilliant. More like brilliantly stupid. I have a chair arm jabbing my ass. This was not the best idea, but the end results are 110% worth it. Tomorrow, I see Kathy and we get our tattoos. On another note, I have the cutest assistant manager ever. It is more of what he says that makes him cute.

Well, my mind is out of thoughts as I ride the bus (not the short one either *darn*). I will keep updating as long as I can think.

Keep l(i/o)ving

I am now on my way to Charlotte, NC. It is going to be a long journey. I haven't slept since 9:00pm last night. So far I have been awake for 15 hours, by the end of my trip, I will have been awake for 33 hours. I have taken 2 no sleep pills since 8 this morning. I just sit and wait for the bus to start moving, but nothing is happening. I am so glad that i am off for the next 4 days counting today. I have to go to work Sunday when i get back.I am just so jittery right now. Keep ya posted.

I am now in Charlotte. And now for the long wait. I keep my family udated on my progress thoughtout this adventure. I feel sick, I think it is that I am homesick. I have never been all by myself on this sort of thing. It seems to have started just recently. Even though it is for 4-ish days I am not used to it. I have wait 2 and a half hours 'til I am able to get on with this trip. The people have been sort of mean to others that are not like them. And a few are relatively nice. I am pretty excited to go back to Goldsboro. I get to see the little bit of friends that remain in town. It seems to be amazing how much one can write on such a long journey with limited light and bs. But I am ready for it to come to an end. Then I have to do the same thing only in the other direction. Once again, this was either brillant or stupid. Which I dont know, I just wish the sick feeling would go away. More to come in Raliegh.

Ok I am in Winston-Salem, on my way to Raliegh. I have to be quick writting there is no light on the bus while it is moving. But today has been eventful, but what takes the cake is that we had a passenger escorted off the bus. Because we had cops search the luggage for narcatics and bs like that. On this bus ride to Raliegh, nothing eventful has occured. Write more later.


I have made it to Raliegh in one piece. Now anothet long and painful wait. It is now 2:3.3 in the morning. So in about 3 hours and 25 minutes I will be back in Goldsboro. I get my tattoo today. But what it is going to be is the mystery. Well, I have nodded off for about 2 hours all together. But when I get to Kathy's I am going to sleep 'til she gets home from school. But nothing has happened for me to write about, so I will write more on my adventures in Goldsboro and the long journey home.
So, until then...keep l(i/o)ving


For the past couple of days I have been homesick. But today I head back home. Thursday, when I got here I went to school and took pictures of people. Sat in Kathy's classes while she was taking her exams. Got our tattoos, went to Kinston went to the mall. We went to Golden Corral for dinner, people stared at us like we atempted suicide. It was funny. So, then Friday, we then went to teh senior breakfast at school. The assistant pricinple looked right at me and smiled and didnt say a word. Kathy then went to grauation practice and I stayed in the car to get some sleep. Nothing monumental happened between that and grauation. After graduation we went to Will's house for a pig pickin'. MY FIRST ONE EVER!!!! We played with fire!! We had to leave at midnight. Now, Saturday, we went to Kathy's dad's house and partied there. Well, cooked out and had cake. Shelby and Kathy brought ddr. We played ddr, jumped on the trampoline, and saw an explosion. After that I was time for me to go. Kathy and Shelby took me to the bus station and sat with me until it was time for me to go. The freaking bus was almost and hour and a half late. As I write this I am in Charlotte for the 3 hour wait. It was to be almost a 6 hour wait. I am not complaining. But during the bus ride I dozed off. I hope I will be able to work tonight. But if not I will have my mom call in for me. I have just updated on my lurvly trip. After almost every bus I ha ve been one I am finally on f'n schedule. I am really happy to go home, I mean I have loved being in Goldsboro, but I missed my family. I am on the bus in Waynesville, NC waiting to go to Knoxville. Then from there to Berea. Honestly, I will not be writing anymore because the fact that there will be nothing important. It is the ride home. I did sleep on and off. I tried not to. So, as of now the updates are done with. Thankfully because I am not the best person to write anything.

Keep L(i/o)ving
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In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off [25 May 2006|11:28am]
[ mood | I get to go see Dingus!!!!!!!! ]

I am gladly to say it that I will finally get to go on some type of vacation this year. I bought a bus ticket back to NC, I will only be there for a couple of days, but it will be good to get out of state and away from work.

I will keep you updated on my progress.

Keep L(i/o)ving

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Not so much time [08 May 2006|08:51pm]
[ mood | confused ]

As things begin to unfurl
So do I
I have been to the hospital last week.
In fear of something severe
Now, I seek the help of someone
Mind wondering and sleeping less
I think its about time to see what in the hell is wrong

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My mind wanders.... [22 Apr 2006|04:47am]
[ mood | confused ]

Well, I know that I really havent been updating this thing. I have been working third shift job and I barely get any time to use the computer when I am home. But, things have just been pestering me for quite some time. I just dont know what to think or do anymore.
I got me a guitar, he's name is Wentz. ....Man, I cant think.

I am working on a plan for me to go back to NC for a couple days in June. I just dont know how I am getting there.

Peter Wentz has nothing on meCollapse )

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I was never told that life would be like this. [02 Feb 2006|12:46am]
[ mood | huh? ]

To the black clouds and underdogs,

I know that I haven't updated in quite some time. But things havent been so easy. I have been working shitty hours and I havent been sleeping. I just dont think that I have the mental fortitude to keep my head straight. Life isnt all thats is cracked up to be. Well, that about all I can think of for now.

Later days,
The one that walks alone

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All that I want to do is hold you forever, forever and ever. [23 Nov 2005|11:16pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Well, hello hello my lovelies. I apologize for the lack of updates in the past few days. I Have been working and I have been majorly exhausted. But Monday night I went with my aunt to see about the Xbox 360. We were 6th in line but she was unable to wait for 12 hours for it. Even though I said I could and she could do what she needs to do that next morning. Her reason for taking me was a place holder. But we went home and she didnt get it.

I have dont really understand why I am in the middle of things. I have had it with everyting. I feel like I am empty anymore. I really am so damn confused. I just want it to end. And for it to quit tearing me in millions of pieces on the inside.

Later Days

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Appealing, only because they are just that un-appealing [17 Nov 2005|08:43am]
[ mood | What to think? ]

Damn, I thought I was going to have 2 days off. Well, last night at 9:40ish, the manager called the store and asked if I was able yeah I am able. I only work from 10-2. Granted it is just 4 hours but it is money in my pocket. I will keep this short because I have to get ready for work.

Will "write" more later

Later Days

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Ill never have friends like these Tonight I will cry a single tear for [16 Nov 2005|01:38am]
[ mood | I have to be at work when? ]

Ok. So, I have workd everyday since Saturday. Wednesday, will be my last day then I go back on Saturday. Man, its exhausting. I went looking for shoes for me and I found a pair but I dont think 52.99(I figured the tax) is worth it. Granted they are Vans but I am a cheap person. I only get roughly 30 hours a week at 5.50 an hour. It isnt the best pay but it helps with my summer vacation.

I could think of a witty thing to put here so you will have to make do with what I put.Collapse )

Well I will keep you posted

Later Days

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Thank you.You know exactly who you are [09 Nov 2005|03:05am]
[ mood | So tired but cant sleep ]

Well, This is another pointless entry in a pointless livejournal. Nothing has been happening around here. I cut my finger while fixing dinner last night. I lost a fight with a bag a frozen veggies. And my hand hurts because bruized my knuckles. I go in to work on the 10th and then am off agian. YAY!! But I get my check Friday and have to cash it on Saturday //Veterns Day, No federal place is open :( \\ But I dont know. I will write more when I am awake.

Later Days

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merry Christmas, I could care less [05 Nov 2005|03:04am]
[ mood | Damn You Carson!!!!!!!! ]

Talk about a bitch. Yesterday I had to pull the only 10 hour shift in the afternoon. I was there from noon to 10pm. Ok, so I would be exhasuted. Well I was, but I had Last Call with Carson Daly marked because of Fall Out Boy was going to be on it. So about the last 20 minutes of the show I started to doze off. Then I woke up after the damn show has ended and Leno was doing his monologue. I am so pissed off at me for that. But I know thats what I get for working 10 hours.

Well peeps I am exhausted and I will type/write more later

Later Days

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I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" [02 Nov 2005|05:09am]
[ mood | I have to be at work when?!?! ]

AHHHHHHHH!!!! I am still in the process of waking up. Because I have to go to work today. I have to go in at 8am and the store does not open til 10am. So, have just been up since 4am. But it aint that bad, so far. But I am still training. But when I get my first check I am getting me a bank account and I will be able to get my stuff of the internet!!! The first stuff I will get will be my Clandestine Industries merch(Release The Bats*dvd* and The Boy With The Thorn In His Side*book*). I am happy to know that I am not the youngest one working, I am the second youngest.

More to come when I get back at 3pm.

Later Days

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